EVERY TIME I DIE singer Keith Buckley took the stage at a February 7 spoken word event at the Signature Brew brewer in London, England and spoke about the band’s status despite it recently breaking up.
Buckley said that things were going south between him and his brother (EVERY TIME I DIE guitarist Jordan Buckley), and that it was best for him to distance himself from the group as he worked on his sobriety.
“I really felt that that was was a good thing good thing for everyone, because I knew that there was friction between Jordan and I,” said Buckley (as transcribed by Metal Hammer). There were a lot of things that happened during the pandemic that still haven’t come out between he and I that led to this, there were multiple attempts at communication, therapy and everything. I love therapy… and I went to it, and I encouraged it for the band, but it was cut off, and I didn’t know why.
“I just feel like I was looked at in bad faith. And I understand that, because I was an alcoholic and I did a lot of terrible things, and so it’s easy to see someone who’s constantly fucking up their own life and just realise that every decision they make is gonna suck, no matter what… And I know that that bad faith filter had been put on for 20 years…
“All I hoped to do was get a clean start and say, take all those filters away and try to look at me now as someone who is totally changing the way they’re living and thinking and speaking and interacting and communicating, and give it a chance: just pretend that I’m not the guy that you got used to. And they couldn’t do it. And it broke my heart.
“On that tour…it was undeniable that I was performing better than i ever have. I was at the top of my fucking game. And I did not see this coming… I was led to believe that everything I was doing was working for the betterment of the band.
“I wanted the band to come out of the pandemic shot out of a fucking cannon, Because I knew that Radical was going to do it for us, it was going to be the one that finally got us to a Mastodon level, or whatever… I’d come out of a marriage with a new approach, and a new confidence to life…and I just wanted the band to have their time to shine. It’s heartbreaking, heartbreaking. However, it is not the end of anything: I can’t even say what the state of the band is right now.
“I don’t know what the future holds, but I know that, right now, this is exactly where I fucking want to be, and I’m very thankful to be here.”
EVERY TIME I DIE announced that they were splitting up on January 17 after a public fall out with Keith Buckley, who said the group should have broken up a while ago.
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